Jolene Crosses tastes like caramel clouds. And you want a bite of it.

Friday, March 30, 2007

ii seriouslyy cann feel the ache.
the ache in my hart.
the pain.
somethingg squeezingg it hard.

ii feel like..
ii feel like crying.
my hart's sobbing .

it feel like it've been thrown onto the ground,
beingg stepped by a million feet.
flat.
buried with a thousand layers of mudd and soil.
it's all heavy.
burden-"ed"

PAIN.
BREATHLESS.
heart is twisted.
EMOTIONAL.
slashes.
the feeling is making me puke.
the weight down there is weighing me down.
pulling me down.

ii am no longer the lil ; hyper ; cheerful gal tt everyone knew.
it was in the past.
BRINGMEBACK.
ii am alwaes trying to surpress my feelings.
the feeling ish overtaking me.
behind those smiles ii tried to fake.
ii'm hiding ALL my emotions.

kill me if uu wan.
there;snt any point.
slashes.
hit miies hard.(when uu see miies)
b0ut not on my shagged face.

`crosses.STABS.BLOODYY DRIPS.

Labels: ii feel pain.

i died.
3/30/2007 11:13:00 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

ii miss him.
TEAR ME APART.

those wordds did hurt.
it's aching ; right down there.
get a hold of my ribcage andd reach for it.
open it.
find my heart.
it's bleeding.
did hurt alot.
notice the wounds and cuts.
slashed;
pierced with thousand rusted nail.
pin it on a nail bed.
add sodium on it and rub.
till it bleed till the last drop.
squeeze it.
make it dry.
tan it under the sun.
for a golden crisp.
dried up.
eat it.
it taste , bitter , sour.
texture : rough.(full of cuts)

it's aching.
hard in there.
it's crying,
much in there.
swallowing down my sorrows down in there.
it feel bloated.
SORE.
supressing my tears.
replacing it with blood.
let it drip till it dries.
clot up.
hang on.
dead ,
and halfway gone.
search for the other part.

since it had alr hurt so much.
ii dun mind the pain.
just for u.
ii dun mind the words , from people's tongue.

ii fell in the well.
cos ii see the reflection of uurs behind mine.
just to search.

`crosses.BITSandPIECESofME.PICK THEM UP.

Labels: ii feel pain., poem

i died.
3/29/2007 09:15:00 PM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

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not edited. was camera lagness :D

outside la0gong's hus. haas.

oh wellls peps.
iim not sad or whadsoevers.
just tink tt being us , humans are terrible.
being fake to one another.
whadd wrongg peps!?
nvms ..
THANKS FOR ALL THAT CONCERN! :DDD LOVEES.
TAGG REPLY. [search for uurs.]
^^
AMANDA :: thanks gal. ii noe tt . (: love ya to0s.

YDNAM :: :D BABELLICIOUS!

CRYSTAL :: heees. better update fast worhhs. if not smackk uur butt!

;~~GARCE~~ GRACE :: haas.thanks pie for loving miies.

EDWIN :: hees. nice of ye to tagg miies. takaiires kkaes? dunn get to0 sadd.ii'm fine.I GUESS.

JUAN :: thanks gal. ii love uu more denn anyone elses!

SAMUEL :: haas. uu aint extra larhhs. thanks for concerning. will link uu soon,ii hope!

HAZZ :: *smilles!* stop sayingg my butt ish nice. uur everythingg ish nicer den ANYTHING! (:

FRIDAY (:
went to bugis widd Alex Ang (huai huai).
cos ii cant findd anyone to go .
cuttiies are being stuckK @ SYF[CO].
go0d luck pple! 3D`07. :D
back to topic! (:
erms.
he was damn nice larhhs.
ask hims to help miies choose colours andd stuffs for thingyy , he will do so de lar.
not like other guys..
sae whadd : uu like whadd colour uu buy lorhs.
haas.
well he's NICE!
he got a burger for me to0s.
haas.for my dad actuallyy. opps.
SWEETS.
had a great day (: met wid brent and his grp of frens.
haahs.
ii totallyy just fell in love wid his hair.
gotta this fetish for guys wid long-yet-not-to0-long andd dyed hair.
WHADD RUBBISH i'm toking.l0ls.

SATURDAY.
CAM WHORE BITCH.

was superbs bored.
she came over to my hus.
andd wait till night falls,
we decided to go towardds QUEENSWAY.
called MR.STYLISH. he said should be closed alr.
so well.

we t0ok 856 to yishun.
wanderingg @ the interchange for like 20 long minutes...
ANG MO KIO HUB,
l0ls.
cos the places tt ii wanna go like J8 , town .. she doesnt wann them.
l0ls.

went to ask uncle which bus cann go amk,
for we doesnt wanna take MRT. weird. dint noe whyy.
l0ls.

AND.

NOTICE NOT ONLY THE NUMBERS.
THE WORDDS!
GEYLANG.
BLEAHS.
before everythingg we were like joking , saying tt maebe we could take this bus for a tour.
AND INTHEEND.
FATED.
this bus goes AMK.
haas.

THIS 3 GUYS. LECHERs. lo0k like it.

well.
in tt bus was abit scaryy though.
LOLS.
enuf of tt 853 bus.
l0ls.

AMK HUBB ISNT THAT BADD.
((:
GO THERE!
heees.

WALK ARD AND ARD.
DENN.
STOPPED AT ANDERSEN's to EAT.
hahs
sinful INDULGENCE. :(

PLEASURE.

COUPLE FONDUE.DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING ELSE.

DAMN IT.FUNNY WAITER. FARID (:

TO0 HOT TO RESIST.CHOC.
it was damn hot. AND she t0ok a longg time to take this pic.LOLS.

may my ladaye do this.
ps:the choc was still HOT.

DIG IN!

WHYY ARE UU SNAPING ME?!

oh wells.Be honoured that miss crosses smiled for uur camera. haahs.

MARSHMELLOWS.MUMMS.

SHE DIPPED IT IN.

AGAIN AND AGAIN. (:

POSEY.2BANANAS.

POSEY.1 GONE!

WHERE'S DA BANANANANANAs?!!?

mmmm.

l0oks like this fell out of my nose. haas.
HOW TO ENJOY.

FIRST,SMELL IT.

SECOND, uu kiss it.

next, open ur mouth..

BIGGER.

AND BIGGER! :D

NICE? YES!

SAME POSE!.

STRAWBERRIES WID HOT CHOC SAUCE ALWAYS MAKE THA MOST WONDERFUL FINISH-UP! YUMMS.

STRAWBERRY HOT CRAZZ.

MAMA MIA~

GONNA EAT.

I TOLD UU TT I BITE.

"ICIGO"bliss.

SEDUCE ME.NOT THA BERRY.

STEAL TT BERRY FRM ME ; AND UU WILL GET IT.

TOO BADD.IT's IN MY MOUTH. :D

FINALLY,ALL CLEARED! :D

after went to fetch qia0hui's mom in her dad's lorry. :D
sat at the back andd felt damn high cos of the BIG WIND.
bought BARCADI! (:

fooling ard in cheers. ii'm the ALCOHOLIC seller.

CAR BABE. She sells the car washingg stuffs.

ALL THAT RUBBISH MADE A GREAT DAY.
ii slept at her hus.PLAYING TRUANT.

PICS OF THE DAY

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

RANDOM.
WENT TO WATCH STOMP DA YARD :D

AHHAs.EATING AGAIN.MY GODD.

ICE CREAM.

SWENSEN's EARTHQUAKE.

sMELLYY PEPS.GET OUT.

LING*TING*CROSSES!

SATISH IS HUGE.

GET LOST BITCHAYE.

DOODLES!

ii'm a freaked out.

isolated arse.
dun abandon me behind.
A TOTAL FAILURE.
not being able to complete anything.
ii noe my frens out there love me.
yet not ALL of them.
it's different.

ii miss him so.

He dint contact me for the whole day.
mind uu.
whole dae.
well..FORGET IT.

`CROSSES.IMMA`Dead for all ii hope.

i died.
3/27/2007 07:18:00 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

HUMAN BEINGGS ARE TOTAL FRAUD.
HUMAN NATURE IS LIKE THAT?

WHADD ARE FRENS FOR?
TO GRABB INFORMATION FROM ONE JUST TO BE A SPY?
JUST TO SPREADD AROUNDD TO THE WHOLE WORLD?
OR??
HMMS.
CHECKINGG UP ON UUR GOOD FRENS.

WHAD'S LIFE?
LIFE'S SUCH A BITCH.
AND I TOTALLY MEAN IT.
BITCHIN AROUND.
YES.
EVERYONE DOES THAT , ISNT IT?
GOSSIPIN.

WHAD'S LIFE BOUT?
LIVING IN A WORLD OF COMPETITION?
WHERE EVERYONE PLAY WIDD STRATERGIES?
AND PLANN WHADD TIMING WOULD BE THE BEST FOR THEM TO SUCCEED AND WHEN THINGS WILL TURN AGAINST U?

TIME'S TICKING.
YET EVERYONE ELSE ARE NOT TAKING THE CHANCE TO TREAT EVERYONE NICE ANDD STUFFS.

THE MOST TRUSTED, THE MOST HURTIN.
I WOULDNT NOE IF UU HAD GOTTEN THE MSG.
WELL.
THE PERSON THAT EVERYONE OF UU COULD TRUST BEST IS UUR SELF.
NOT TO MENTION ANYONE ELSE.

II'M CRYING ;

II'M BLEEDIN;

LIFE'S SUCH A FCUK .

SOS.

SOMEONE PLS COME AND RESCUE ME.

`CROSSES.WHERE WERE WE?

TAG REPLIES!

for those peps whom saidd tt ii've danced well during camp.

hahs.

nope nopes.

it was everyon's effort!

tokyo drift.DANCE! at least 3d`07 had gotta dance tt everyone noes! co0l.

:: ADEVAAAAA(: ii noe tt uu've been reading my blogg! :D l0ves manyy manyy.

:: JUAN smo0ches`!

:: cora ; & xia0prince &amp;amp;amp;amp; ;mandy w will link uu guys when possible!

:: tiiNggx dear,ii love uu loadds to0!

:: huii` ii love uu to0s. thanks for makingg my day a plesant one in sch (:

ii dunn c crystal's tag! kekex.

thankscrystal. so nice to hab uu sit beside miies ! (:

i died.
3/24/2007 10:44:00 AM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

fluidd. :DD

**sighs**
so manyy thinggs to do;
yet so lil time.
haiish.

thinggs have been happenning.
much of unhappyy stuffs. :(((
grrrrs.

UPDATES!!
real la0gong :: piggyy weii . 170307. haiish. he made me cried on the secondd day tt we were together.
la0gong :: alvin tan.
xia0la0gong :: ler ler
darlingg :: yih chyuan
dear :: tingg . forever :D
honeyy :: beanniie. MING SHUANG
pie :: GRACE
one andd onlips jiie :: weenah
bao bei didi :: CHUN SERN.
didi :: marcus.
dear dear korr :: alex
korr :: DESMOND; jonathan ; soon lee ; ..
meii :: tricia. JAPiies
ii love :: huii juan.
ii HARTTS :: crystal , sihui , ruting, yoketing , crabbbiie , AND WHOLE OF 3d`07 ; 2e`07 !!
:D

grrrrs.
cant standd tt fcukingg mr lee who looked down on 2e`06.
liike damn fuck.
habb beeen listening to my beloved frens from his class complaining bout hims.
all my dears are so pissed by hims.
cannt standd it.

WINKS.

ii love my dear.

qia0s.crosses.DEAR.

soar up high. the grp tt finishes thinggs best!

ii niid not uur approval to survive.
GET OUT.FUCKER.

i died.
3/22/2007 05:08:00 PM

Monday, March 19, 2007

FCUK ARSE.
~~TURN IT ALL AWAE.~~
ii hate all that noise .
ii hate being miies.
ii hate being so lazy.
ii hate being so not accomplished.
ii hate every single bit of miies.
ii hate it.
hate it all.
hate it at home.

`crosses.ii need the old me.

i died.
3/19/2007 12:06:00 AM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

HEYYS!
CAMP WAS EXCEEDINGLYY FUN.
WIDD THOSE PEPS!
MY GRP!.
CROSSBONES.

AND.
those LOVELYY INSTRUCTORS.
ANDREW AND VERON.
LOVE CAMP LOADDS.
will post those lovelyy pics. whenn ii gathered them.
they are all so seperated. :D
hahs.

did uu noticed tt my grp in short form is actuallyy CB?
hahas.

CHEERS.
hey CB uu're so fun uu're so fun tt uu blow my mindd. hey CB, hey , HEY , hey CB.
GO BACK AND.
hey CB uu're so fun uu're so fun tt uu blow my mindd. hey CB, hey , HEY , hey CB.

3d sat. 3d sat
3d zaii. 3d zaii
3d dia0.3d dia0.
3d huat arhs!
(hahs. this ish frm LUCIFY! :D ii leaded this cheer! )

we danced to tokyo drift for our our camp fire performance.!
nice canns?
everyone was damn on larhhs.

LOVE 3D`07.LOADDS.

alvin carrying mr. sexyy wid flagg on. (:

frm left::ting dear;crabbie;andrew;crosses;bean [lo0ked damn weirdd]

huge loaded eyebagg causedd by previous nite cryys.

HAPPIIE PEPS! :D ii miss andrew.ANDD VERON.obviouslyy.

no more pics lerrs.
bo0s.THERE WILL BE MORE.
heees.

WELL.
i declared SINGLE.
no more ~~KAZUYA~~.
((:
andd uu peps noe whadd?
after ii broke up widd hims for less than 2 hours.
his msn nick is like. :: I LOVE CHARLEEN MARN BLAHHS BLAHHS.
like WTFFCUKK!!.
hahs.
cannt stop myself to tinkK tt he's two-timing.
WHADDEVA.
ii still gotta my l0velyy galfrens by my side.

ANDD..not forgetting my stupiidd piggyy.

ANWs.
HAPPIIE BIRTHADAE TO MY ALEX DEAR DEAR KORR.
SORRYYS TT I REMBed AT the VERyys LAST MINUTE.
ii love korr.
(:

went to watch stomp da yard widd Qia0 ; yong huii ; pinkyy ; john ; jianweii piggyy ; & ah-joe (lingg's bro)
it's quite average.
nothingg muchh of special larhhs.
not VERYYS RECOMMENDEDD.
after tt , ii thought of kazuya.
which makes miies feel DAMN SADD.
haHS.
now come to thinkK of it ii thinkK it's damn funnyys.

yeapps.
ii feel totallyy fine nows!
ii miiss camp!
:DDDDD

nidda workK hardd for my studiies lerrs.
ii gotta an average of 63% onliies.
haiishhs.
GAMPATEH!.
GALS.
PEPs!
3D`07!
LET's WORKK towardds our goals.
NICE.
dunn let ppl l0ok down on us.
we 're definatelyy DYNAMIC.
not ~~DONKEYs~~.
((((((:

understandd miss crosses more.

she's blastingg music into her ears.

right nows.

a total mixtue of feelinggs.

makingg miies feel like throwin up.

grrrrs.

reachh for her hands.

carryy her in uur arms.

HEAL her.

time will.

TIME WILL HEAL HER.

she's definatelyy not upset over some bastarddiie.

((:

it's just tt confusiion to0k over.

LOVE HER.

TAKE HER.

PAMPER.

SPOILT.

SHE's TOO MUCH OF LOVELYY.

TRESURES.

:DD

i died.
3/17/2007 12:17:00 AM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

FLUID.

WOOO WHEEEEEE!
ii'm currentlyy @ lingg's hus.
cos just came back frm fluid. (:
HADD GREAT TIME THERE!
ii Y my WEENAHJIIE
ii Y FIdIRIA.
ii Y MABLE.
ii Y YEELING.
ii Y YUEXUAN&YUEWEII.
LOVE THEM LOADDs.

GRRRRRRs.
beingg attachedd ish a superbbs TERRIBLE ThiNG.
oh manns.

ii saw KAZUYA @ fluid canns?
FCUKk narhhs.
he so-called "warned" miies tt ii cannt dance widd other guyys larhhs.
AND DENNS!
ii turned over andd saw hims HUGGING wid a yellow-tube gal.
LIKE whaddeFCUk.
doingg things that uu condemned.
GET HOME.
oh wells.
he saidd tt tt gal is his CLOSE CLUBINGG FRENS.

whenn ii was dancingg,
there was this angmoh larhhs.
he asked if he cann dance widd miie.
KAZUYA denn tapped tt guy n said tt ii'm his.
FCUK OFF.

there's this LOVE-HATE relationship within the both of us.
*cant be bothered.*

after tt we went out of fluidd to rest awhile larhh.
denn there was this prettyyy CUTE guy whom ii thought tt he was drunk..
he laid down beside miies!
ahas.
denn he tapped me.
********************************************************

HE :: whadd's uur name?
ME :: errms. JOLENE?
HE :: (reached his hand out) LINCOlN
ME :: okaiies....

a few minutes lata..
he walked pass miies andd pulledd miies by my wrist.
HE :: let's go dance.
ii was like..askingg mabel they all to go in also norhhs.
denn theyy showed no signs of like gg in.
ii was abit scared larhhs.
denn he was DRAGGIN miies into da dance flo0rr alr.
FIDIRIA TO THE RESCUE!!
WHEEEEEES.
LOVE HER. :DD
LOVE TT CUTE GUY TO0!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

hahs.

ii LOVE clubbingg .
superbbs fun. ((:
denn weenah andd her ex sent miies to lingg's hus.
how nice of themm!
(*:

ii LOVE my PARENTS TO0`!
they were like superbb okaiies for miies to slp over like tt.
ii toldd them ii gotta chalet.
WHEEEEEES;
II FEEL SO LOVED!!

wahhahs,
special thanks and congrats to my GAL.
MEIlINGG.
wahhas.
tanks gal for helpingg miie to bringg my brokken shoe back.
hahs.
andd LOADDSA THINGGS!.
THANKS PINKYYY.
ALL DA BEST.

`CROSSES.SHE WASntHERanymore.

i died.
3/11/2007 08:05:00 AM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

HEYYOS PPLE!
ii've been so damn lazyy alrites.
ii'm TIREDD!
without failingg to slp in class every single dae.
but none of those teachers caught miies.
WHEEES.
((:

MY BELOVED SKULL EARRINGGS ARE CONFISCATEDD!
fcuk.
it was frm kazuya narhhs.
MISS SEE. ii wann tt backk!!!!!!
ARGGHHHS.

ii m so dam beat.
goshh`d.

LONGG TIME AGO.

CAM WH"ORE.

oh wells.
ii went chingay anyways.
it's pretty longg ago.
on the 23 n 24th of feb. (:
ii LOVE chingay.
it totallyys rock!
it was the partyy ii guess.
everyone was damn high andd dancingg their huge-arse off manns.
SUPERBBS. (:

24thFEB.
YELLOWED-TABBED. hahs. CRABIIE WAS WEARINGG MY GREEN SHIRT!!! cos of her kip-dropping-tube.BOOS.
hees.

LADEE DANCE.

IMMA`LIVING DEAD.

COSPLAYERS! LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES! EXCITEMENTS.

chingay was DARRNN FUNN.
hadd loadds of dancingg! SMOOCHES;

SCHOOL LIFE.

CRYSTALISED.

SIHUII(dint habb a chance to take pic widd here)) AND THIS CRYSTAL HERE ARE DAMN SWEETS! SUPERBBS CANDYYS. ((:

SIHUI.
the other dae which ii tink ish 3 weeks ago..SIHUI "sensed" my sadness andd asked narhhs.
ii told her ... :: NO ONE MSG MIIES! :(
SIHUII sent :: heys. dun be sad larhs. here, ii msged uu (:
SHE WAS JUST SITTINGG IN FRONT OF MIIES :DD

CRYSTAL.
she's damn LOLIPOP. (((:
she sent miies those veryys sweet msges when she saw my "moodiness?"
LOLS.
EVERYTIME.
denn she will listenn to my problemms norhhs.
denn tryingg to giv solutions whenever ii whine bout thinggs bout Kazuya.

iiLOVEtheseGALS.

iiLOVEmyTINGDEARtoo!

wells.
ii'm tiredd alreadyys.

ii wann::

MOTOROLA REDD.

HARDD CASHH. $

SWEET GALFRENS.
HAIR TREATMENT.

a metallic shimmer PINK electric guitar @ douby gaut.

a drummset.

THE SKILLS ; the LESSONS. for the two above.

BLACK eyeliner.
DANCE COURSE.

food.

andd most of all..

the original miies.

ii wasnt ~~miies~~ anymore.

ii cann feel it.

the changes.

LIFE's HARDD.

ii lost control of miies.

WHERE'm ii?!!

SHOT.DEAD.

`crosses.SHE WAS NO LONGER HER. :(

i died.
3/08/2007 10:13:00 PM