Lousy
Feeling Lousy.
Was Lousy.
He's lousy.

Meow
Meow meow meow.
Meow is a noun, verb and adjective.

F
A vulgar shortform ; to prevent myself saying it literally.
Fabulous.


Had always been putting a smiley front.


random : LMF rather than LMG now.;

The legendary white one.

Thanks alot for all individual encouragements.
Sorry .

A day less of school = a day less of bad luck.

hence, no bad luck tml.

My calculator screen broke for no apparent reason. It became like that when i came back from the washroom .
If you're the culprit, i'll so make you pay for it, for ruin my mood too. You rot.

thanks people on my tagboard. ARIGATO!
But i really dunnoe what to do when my grades are like, )":



look, i'm on xu zhen rong's blog. LOL.

Here, this is the pic. Look for me:)

Ruting tai , desmondkoh , me. Her dream pic.

Support ethe`real , aka yi shi jie for superband.
Anw, this picture is originated from my lovely, Crystal. Note that.
Love these girls , plus, Ting dear, la jiao lesbo Claire!

This will be how i look if i'm borned in the 60s.

life's like a sparkle.
A minute of glory before death , or even shorter.
life's like a rose.
flawless yet with thorns.
withers as the time passes.
No one remembers.
Alive for a minute,
Death met you next.


Regain.
butterfly is, but misery.

With utmost anticipation for the slightest view of Rei's friendster update,
it was aggrieving . Upset is just th word.
I declare, the Reivax in my Y died.

I dont like people changing their mind last minute.
I rejected a birthday deal and a towning session cause i tot i had programs on last friday.

Emotional lately, cant help it.

what to do.

am i getting weird? ):

-You need not understand.

Dry that up ,
all of that.
No more whines ,
no more sobs.


Refraining to think,
Refraining to miss.
It's foul air.
You are stuck like glue, on my mind.
The throe of agony,
is really bad.


Dry those tears,
Empty.


You burnt me.
literally not.
you got it vacant ,
aggrieved.
Damaged,
like how deleterious a volcano can be.
It strains much. and i really mean it.


memories are killer.
It explains how silence murder.
words to be mum in heart,
causing pricks and pierces.
As friends ,i'm glad.
As silence , tears.
As conversations , i had never made known .
Letting it rest as possible.
spot, shut.


Grey casts, the surge for you.

;Martyrdom

crawled out of the gallow ; escape.

SCHOOL


Today ;


It've been such a day .



*BadBad, not to be expected results.


*I lodged a complaint to the town council person for getting paint all over my door and shoes.


*I dun like john lim's SLOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWMOOOOO and DRAGGGGGGGGGGGGGY lectures. It teleports me to tralalalalala land.


* I hate it when i wished for you, when i know things are impossible.






That sounds so much like i'm a terrible person. but i'm not!






Grins (:


♥ Glad to eat alone for recess . never ate something alone before. adeva and tessa were sitting beside me and not eating. It cheered me up a little!


♥ I had a good nap just now.


♥ i'm actually sad for my just pass results, shows that i'm caring for them .


♥ Gotta the very funny book to read. Ting dear's book!






Initially to have so many programmes tml , but but! There's some supposed to be important parent talk.






I FEEL LIKE GG ZOUK! DIE!










ME and ruting taitai. imh!



Me and adeva. MY Recess mate! :D



okays, my recess mates.



some compliment for our class. Look, 4d kinda rocks okays.



Me and Crystal with our qian da thing. Imh!

Who ever understands the agony

Once again, my head feels like it's gonna burst.
Computer studies is good enough to kill me.
and here comes Food&nutrition plotting a murder sheme for me.


Save me from frozen pain.

why is th word 'dolce' appearing eveywhere ?
today is a contented superb slacking day.
AND AND THE BIG GARDEN BELOW MY HOUSE IS OPENED! it's damn nice! such a nice place to chill also! (:
yest, was .. but a tearful day. and i dont let it all out yet.


amaro dolce.

I'm Stressed.

I so mean it.

Grant me MORE TIME.

-i dun wanna flunk my computer studies.

vacancy in the hollow hold.
substances abosorbed into vaccuum.
iniation conquered.
left to right,
right to left,
stared into the stagnant cool mist,
black , all black.
All these are nothing ,
empty. without any mass.
hold it with your heart.
and put some into your brain.

-ifeelempty.

went for lewis' gig at dxo with dexter.
People, listen up , MERCY RESTRAINT IS GOOD! :)
it's a band anws. heys,free advertisement leh! haha.


guitarist , i think he's called jeremy. he looks like jay chou.

and this is LEWIS!

Dexter :) he makes great accompany.

WOO QIAO HUI CAME MY HOUSE. haha.

`YU; i want to go a step forward. but there's no need.

RUN AWAY.


Memories are hauling , deep from beneath.
hurled at me.
some stuffs that are gone forever,
be gone with the wind.
i still think of it.
it's already a year before i realised it.
i dint treasure much before,
and your backview were a temptation to grab.
how i wished,
tightly cuddled ,
and never let go.


Tears are beholding.
i wished to let it out.
but aint alone.
i do not wanna lash it out with a consoling heart.
i need someone's warmth, shoulder.
HUGS ARE LOVE.


i went to rebond today and had a haircut.
spent $130.
idk , it looked good when i was in the salon, and now it wave like shit.
worse than before.
like damn.
may the above bless me with better luck.
shall upload pics someday.


something that i always mentioned,
LIVE WITH NO REGRETS.
but i'm such a contradict.
phweefs.


ì-GRAVE ; MOMENTUM OF DEPLORE.

some parts of life, make me feel like crying an ocean out from my heart.
but crying dint seems to be as simple as ever.


mshon said something which quite touched me, some time recent.
& piepie always offers me with the questions and concern i wish to hear.
nevertheless, THANKS GIRLFRIENDS -if i can consider you as one.


I got a pair of grey contact lens which so dint suit me. GOD DAMN IT`
my braces colour is BLUE and RED.
and i seriously have something against this COLOUR.
SERIOUS COLOUR DISORDER! *SCREAMS*

MEET MY EYES.

Vacancy in life. felt so much ridiculed.

Caliginous thoughts.

obscured heart.

stabs of agony.

LIFE's such a ..

WORD.

sardonicism.

TAKE SIDES AS YOU WISH.
just dont imply. (:
it's like I CARE.

stenches of rotting.
heads bursting,
corpses increasing.
voices vanishing,
blood condensing.
love depleting,
odium stacking.
iniation conquered.


went out with amanda today and outings with her never fails to turn out so happily. (:
and i saw so many people.
kenneth,terrance,bibi they all. ; jabez; xiaolynn ; raymond tan;lorinna; that fugly-cant-dance-girl (:

ARGHHS.
I'M DAMN IT BORED AND FASTRATED.
L0LS.
I WAN MONEY .
REAL HARD CASH.
HAAS.
I NIDDA STUDYY AND II AINT DOING TT.
AND MY SIST KEEP TOKING TO ME.
I'M DAMN IT DE IRRITATED.
L0LS.
SHE SOLD ME A TOPSHOP SKIRT WHICH I HAD PAID HER.
AND I JUST SAW HER KEEPING INTO HER STUPID CUPBOARD.
DAMN IT MOTHER FUCK.
L0L.


ANWS,
A BAR OF CHOCOLATE CONTAINS 147 INSECTS FRAGMENTS AND IT'S LEGAL!
LIKE WHADDE..
BUT WHO CARES.
I'M JUST STILL NOT GONNA GIV UP ON EATING MY CHOCOLATE BARS.
I L0VE CHOC.
BUT IT MAKES ME FAT.
I'M FILLED WITH CHOC.
LOADS N LOADS OF IT.
TRIPLE CHOC.


IMAGINE I DIED SOMEDAY,
THE DOCTOR BISECT ME FOR SOME FCUKING REASONS..
N ALL THOSE HARDEN CHOCOLATE JUST FLOW OUT AS SEMI SOLID.
L0LS.

EVERYONE IS BREAKING.
CRYING AND GETTING EMOTIONAL.
WELL, THIS TIME ROUND.
IT WASNT LIKE LAST YEAR.(COS OF STUDYY'S STRESS)
THIS TIME ROUND ARE PROBLEMS ALL ARD US.


WELL.
I CRIED DURING COMP STUDIES.
I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE,
AND GUESS WHADD?
JIAN JUN CRIED TO0.
HE WAS NEXT TO ME.
HAAS.
EMOTIONAL PEOPLE.


I'M MUCH BETTER.
I HOPE I M?
L0LS.


I DUNWANNA MISS UU.
PLEASE GET OUT OF MY MIND.
STOP BEING STUCKED UP THERE.
I CANT REFRAIN.
AVOID.
SCAM.
RUN AWAE.
HIDE.

ii 'm so sorrys to the frens aroundd miies.

for having to tolerate my mood swing.

and.

my tears.ii noe it's annoying.

ii hate it when ii cry.

ii hate my self.

ii hate it when ii try to do things tt are..

stupiidd.

ii hate it.

ii wanna get over hims.

but ii couldnt.

thanks pple for being there for miies.

andd takingg in my nonsense.

plus,

thanks for all that concern and console.

(:

`crosses.bit by bit.ii noe.ii'm ganing the steps to ME.

ii seriouslyy cann feel the ache.
the ache in my hart.
the pain.
somethingg squeezingg it hard.

ii feel like..
ii feel like crying.
my hart's sobbing .

it feel like it've been thrown onto the ground,
beingg stepped by a million feet.
flat.
buried with a thousand layers of mudd and soil.
it's all heavy.
burden-"ed"

PAIN.
BREATHLESS.
heart is twisted.
EMOTIONAL.
slashes.
the feeling is making me puke.
the weight down there is weighing me down.
pulling me down.

ii am no longer the lil ; hyper ; cheerful gal tt everyone knew.
it was in the past.
BRINGMEBACK.
ii am alwaes trying to surpress my feelings.
the feeling ish overtaking me.
behind those smiles ii tried to fake.
ii'm hiding ALL my emotions.

kill me if uu wan.
there;snt any point.
slashes.
hit miies hard.(when uu see miies)
b0ut not on my shagged face.

`crosses.STABS.BLOODYY DRIPS.

ii miss him.
TEAR ME APART.

those wordds did hurt.
it's aching ; right down there.
get a hold of my ribcage andd reach for it.
open it.
find my heart.
it's bleeding.
did hurt alot.
notice the wounds and cuts.
slashed;
pierced with thousand rusted nail.
pin it on a nail bed.
add sodium on it and rub.
till it bleed till the last drop.
squeeze it.
make it dry.
tan it under the sun.
for a golden crisp.
dried up.
eat it.
it taste , bitter , sour.
texture : rough.(full of cuts)

it's aching.
hard in there.
it's crying,
much in there.
swallowing down my sorrows down in there.
it feel bloated.
SORE.
supressing my tears.
replacing it with blood.
let it drip till it dries.
clot up.
hang on.
dead ,
and halfway gone.
search for the other part.

since it had alr hurt so much.
ii dun mind the pain.
just for u.
ii dun mind the words , from people's tongue.

ii fell in the well.
cos ii see the reflection of uurs behind mine.
just to search.


`crosses.BITSandPIECESofME.PICK THEM UP.