first of all,
THANKS ; A BIG THANK to all. : D


www.loveitcrosses.blogspot.com say thanks!


for all that concern provided from uu guys!
rock on,
though the problems are still there,
ii felt much encouraged. : D


it was the "last" paper , monday still having chinese.
(*x.x) and i was left to be at home.
ii hate it lah.
the feeling still there.
ii felt SO SO SO much like crying just now.
but ii tot tt ii shall stay strong,


there's so much in the bottom of my heart,
tt ii'm dying to vomit it out.
ii cant put my hand in my throat and DIG it out.
it's disgusting.
it became heavier as the days goes by.
ii m sinking to a devasted state.


ii aint gonna tell them"ling and qia0"
it's neverr gonna be better.
it may get worsen.


ii felt SO SO SO MUCH LIKE CRYING just now,
amanda was kind enough to offer to call me.
think she's slping alreadyy.
ii wann her to call.
haas
ii feel veryys MYSELF while toking to her lar.
and she's definitelyy a LOVELYY LADAYE.
CCCCC :


anws ,

this is for ONE tai tai tingthesist to see :D

CS3 photoediting.LOLS.
it was ...ARGGHHS.

ii spent the dae off like that.
where's my frens?
hahs.
being with themselves?
oh JOY,

`MISSCROSSES. thanks (:

YLIPS.

huii` thanks princess! LOVES.

Adeva` thanks love.yea ,ii love youu. we shall resume our girly toks.

;ggrace ` thanks pie. yeas. we love! we smile!



MARYLYN.♥` heees. TUI!



amanda` thanks gal, uu are such a lovely.call me!



singpohh` gan didi. wala0s.ii just like it nor.



corriine` thanks corrine. ai ni worhs!

ERINA`thanks.yeahhs. CHEERoS.EXAMS OVER! YAYS.

sandra` tml maebe gg sentosa wid uu guys! haas, yeahhs, and ii noe ii gotta uu too rites? :D

oh loveess. ii'm once again here .
having physic andd ii dint even touch my book.
WORSE than chemistry.






gals,
ii seriouslyy doesnt noe whyy lar.

ii feel so unhappyy being wid uu gals.

my mood cann be affected by the slightest things uu gals do.

and OBVIOUS, uu gals get veryys sensitive and feel veryys irritated by the most little comment ii made.

whad de fcuk .

ii dunn feel happyy.

ii feel so left out.

ii feel like ii'm there ALONE.

ii feel like crying.

but, ii've to be strong.

ii dunnwanna regret anymore.

ii will just do whadd ii wann to do .

ii just miss those GOOD OLD DAYS, we used to have.

the more tt ii'm too comfortable wid uu gals , perhaps it also shows the more ii dunn feel comfy.
l0ls.


RESTRICTED.

it's real eyelashes.

`crosses. ii'm out there. so far. remoted. isolated.

p.s / ii aint invisible. ii'm real.

this was whadd verock said to me::




=( Your blog make me very sad you know. One day you'll realise money isn't everything. True it's impt, but someday you'll realise there are things worth so much more. To you now you might think you really want it, thats because you dont have it. But when you really have loads of it, you would just take it for granted. But then again, money is always never enough to satisfy most people.
Jolene, jia you and study hard. x) You're not a failure. The more you say it, the more it gets to your brain. It affects you somehow, though you think i wont. Yea, but you're a kick ass girl ! =]










wells, ii felt damn touched or whaddsoever lahhs.










now, he is gone forever.




never gonna be mine again.




perhaps ii was wrong to let go, tt time. too easily.




now, thinking and missing.




i feel the ache.sometimes , ii cry . sometimes , it's tt much tt ii cant even cry it out.




oh joy.










exams , yeahhs . are difficult.




I HATE EXAMS , ALOT.




i realyy do not want to stae back in sec 3 next year lahhs.




i dint like half of my comp studies? cos ii dint noe how to do.




whad the fcuk ;




forgett it.




have to survive through CHEM , PHYSICS & CHINESE. LOVEES. gonna fail.










OH YARHs. ii got the first lolita in my life. (((:




and it looks like ::


ii was damn delighted! : DDDDD $ 100 is kinda cheap? for lolita lar. not rich. ii'm DAMN IT BROKE NOW. l0ls.




HADD TO UPDATE ON QIA0HUI's BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION . : D tt will be after ii got AL THE PICS.




good bye long nails. *** my pinkyy wasnt this disgusting like alf black lahh ,it was all black but broke my nail while trying to scrape it off*** eeewks.




Y sweetest thing tt is possible alive








skinny reflects on us ;


CROSSES. considered. DEAD. anounced.

THE TEMPTATION.CONSUMING ME.

had my grandad's b'dae celebration at his hus yest. (:
it was kinda nothing anyways.had pic though.
haas.
went to my aunt's hus for a slpover wid my sist.
(:my cousins are superb adorable.
hahs.
he msged me yest till todae's morning.
hahas.MISSES.
oh wells...

with a taste of my lips. Y
thanks pple for all those wishes.

but ii aint studyying.not at all.ii'm such a failure.

haiish.

uu guys workhard to0s!

`crosses.ii'm lost.in uur eyes.

ARGHHS.
I'M DAMN IT BORED AND FASTRATED.
L0LS.
I WAN MONEY .
REAL HARD CASH.
HAAS.
I NIDDA STUDYY AND II AINT DOING TT.
AND MY SIST KEEP TOKING TO ME.
I'M DAMN IT DE IRRITATED.
L0LS.
SHE SOLD ME A TOPSHOP SKIRT WHICH I HAD PAID HER.
AND I JUST SAW HER KEEPING INTO HER STUPID CUPBOARD.
DAMN IT MOTHER FUCK.
L0L.


ANWS,
A BAR OF CHOCOLATE CONTAINS 147 INSECTS FRAGMENTS AND IT'S LEGAL!
LIKE WHADDE..
BUT WHO CARES.
I'M JUST STILL NOT GONNA GIV UP ON EATING MY CHOCOLATE BARS.
I L0VE CHOC.
BUT IT MAKES ME FAT.
I'M FILLED WITH CHOC.
LOADS N LOADS OF IT.
TRIPLE CHOC.


IMAGINE I DIED SOMEDAY,
THE DOCTOR BISECT ME FOR SOME FCUKING REASONS..
N ALL THOSE HARDEN CHOCOLATE JUST FLOW OUT AS SEMI SOLID.
L0LS.

DAMN IT MOTHER FCUk.

ii blogged just now.
andd due to my comp's insanity...
the post had been gone!
DAMN IT.

ii shouldnt be blogging.
ii had a list of things ii have gotta do manns.
it's superb lagg.so soryys.
CONTINUED Y

rytefully 14.

taste me.

show me whad uu've got.

screams

babes.

AHAS.

addiction (2).

tt gal ii love so much.

dancers.

geees.

come on.

tt stare.

this is edit by alex.prettyy amazing yeahs?
(:ii miss hims to0 . haas. dunnoe how many fcuking days did not contact.

.........................................................................
MY PRACTICAL EXAM!
ii gotta the pics!
((:

any chicken sashayer for uu? *alex puke after he ate the trail-cook of it*

chiili prawn with youghurt dip for a start.

sweet treats.

TATA! here uu go! ((:

`MISSCROSSES tinkabell.
:DDDDDDDDD

haas.


had compo exam todae.
which one of the questions is HAPPINESS
obviously , ii chose tt.
ii toked bout loads and loads of crap.
"money cannot buy happiness? ii beg to differ. money is more than essential ...."
"unhealthy food , chocolate which contains uncountable amount of sugar and fats, is something that will release a kind of hormones called the endorphines...eating it will feel happy."
ii ACTUALLY WROTE RUBBISH like tt.
and ii ended off wid,
"impossible is nothing " , " be optimistic"

MAY GOD BLESS AND I WOULDNT FAIL.

after writing tt essay, ii dunn feel happy.
no one walks along with me on the same path...

oh ya. and noe whadd ... ii wrote stuffs on my note book which ii noticed a few days back..

**A mere lil girl , searched the world for blood. Vaguely, just to quench her thirst. She sucks till the very last drop. Walking in the blck rain , dripping blood, that's Miss Crosses being being total delighted.Isolated , being alone, roaming. But she isnt mischevious;wild. She's tamed.MISS CROSSES need blood.
-written on 29jan07.

**To each wonderland , to meet everyone's lust. MEet her needs, bloody road down that dark aura, that's her wonderland. MISS CROSSES.
-written on 21feb07.

ii wrote those stuffs manns.

hahas.

damn it rubbish!

TO PEPS IN 3D`07!
WE'VE GOTTA PROVE IT TO THE OTHERS TT WE CANN DO IT! ((:
GAMPATEHHS!
MUST WORK HARD AND NOT BE LIKE ME NEHS!

`misscrosses. WHO AM I?

was it longg before ii blogg?
haas.


ii hate it.
ii hate myself manns.
ii couldnt control myself.
for feeling tt damn it way,
for missing those people ii shouldnt be.
oh my fcuking arse.
ii'm such a failure.


undone stuffs.
MATHS. *chapter three & four.
ENGLISH *complain letter.
CHINESE * l0adds of compo.
SOCIAL STUDIES * essays.
FnN *COURSEWORK! TA!
GEOG * projects, worksheets.


MANNYYS MORREES.



who else can ii blame except FOR ME, MYSELF?
HATES ;



ii'm so tired every single day.
:(



I NEED MONEY!
I WAN LOLITA!
I WAN GO HARAJUKU!



wells,
people..
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN ONE MONTH's TIME!
(:
YEEEEEPIIIIIIIES!
*hint to MANY!*





YTODAE. superbs boring day.
` went to sch.as usual.
` wasnt late! ((((:
` Lessons were superb boring.


` went to the mobil dental.
` THE DENTIST WAS NICE!
` he DRILLED INTO MY GUMS! ouch!
` bleedd andd bleedd.
` the taste of blood. ii cann remb how ii liked it last time. ii tot tt it tasted a mixture of sweetness and salty. ii likED the smell. (notice tt ED)


` had recess, chinese, FnN.
` MADAM ng is such a poor thingg.


` went to northpoint wid BEAN honey.
` saw renata :D
` ate yoshinoya.
` head down to douby gaut.
` JOB HUNT!
` LOVELYY PEPS AT PS.
` at douby gaut exchange 's lolita shop, knew huiru (sales gal)
` ii wan work there! (:
` but the pay is like shit.
` $3/hour.


` SEMBAWANG.
` RAIN LIKE IT'S NEVER GONNA STOP.
` WENT LIBRARY.
` COMPLETED SOCIAL STUDIES EXPIRED ESSAY.
` WAIT TILL MY PARENTS COME FETCH ME.

ii love weenah jie. :D
XXXXXXXXXXXXXX
whadd a boring life ii 'm leading.ii'm so LIFE-LESS.
CROSSES HATES her.
ii'm her.
ii'm crosses.
......................................................

DARK chocolate filled me.
the bitter followed by the subtle sweetness.
is tt supposed to be life?
ii dunnoe.

`MISSCROSSES.stuck in the middle of no where.

WAHAHAHAS.
HEY HOs!
LET the pics speak.
[[:

make up session.

messyy hair!

BUBBLE TEA!

the other day tt went bugis to buy jacket.

8thapril.

crosses.bean .*honey.
RANDOM.










same poseyy. look tweenyy alike.. [[:


was trying to copy my dear's pose. (:

we are indeed cam whores. [[:

missCROSSES. STYLED.

LOOK it's more than black.


TO BE CONTINUED. Y

ARGHHHS .
RANTS & ROARS.
HEYYS, come on and get a life. be original manns. dunn just go with the flow. or go with wif me. ii'll puke. and ii'm puking right now.


imma`beat.
gonna update soon.
WIDD ALL THOSE PICS!. uploading in process!



`MISSCROSSES. comeon.be original.

VIV0 TAIIS TAIIS!Y
WO0TS!

; MEET RUTING AND YOKETING AT YISHUN LAST CABIN.
; I WAS THE FIRST TO REACH.
; HEAD TOWARDS VIV0.
; TOK QUITE ALOT IN THE TRAIN (:

; HAD LUNCH AT VIV0,LONG JOHN SILVER.

; WALK ARD VIV0 SECOND LEVEL TIL LIKE 4 PLUS.
; HUNGRY!

; HE CALLED MIIES.
; I JOKINGLYY SAID TT II WAS WID MY BOYFRIEND.
; HE GOT DAMN BLOODY ANGRY.
; LIKE WHADD!?! DUNNOE HIMS LARH.

; WENT HAAGEN DAAZ
; ORDER FONDUE.
; PLAE ALOT.
; MADE ALOT OF NOISE.
; LAUGH HYSTERICALLY.
; TOOK ALOT OF RETARDED PICS.
; POSED WID THE CHOCOLATE SEXY LIPS.
; I LOOKED LIKE VAMPIRE.

; WENT UP TO THE ROOF.
; DANCED TOKYO DRIFT.

; WENT TOILET.
; THEY FIGHT LIKE HELL IN THE CUBICAL (PLAYFULLY)


; WENT TO THE OTHER SPOT.
; THERE' THIS TWO GUYS AND ONE GAL.
; THEY LOOKED LIKE THEY ARE YOUNGER DENN US.
; WE DANCED AND PLAYED ARD IN THE WATER AGAIN.
; THEY CLAPPED FOR US.
; FELT ABIT LIKE THEY WERE TRYIN TO DISTURB.
; FCUK THEM.

; TOKK LOADDS OF STUFFS.

; HAD STOMACHE.
; MRT.
; YOKE TING ALIGHTED WID ME AT SEMB.
; COS GOT A GUY KIP OOGLING AT HER.
; HE ALIGHTED AT SEMB TO0.
; MY DAD FETCHED HER HOME.
; DENN ME , HSH.



TINGTHERELLA;TINGTHESIS.
<3333s.
THE GALS OF MY LIFE!



WE GOTTA PICTURES! GOTTA TAKE FROM YOKETING.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


regarding the dance , WELLS.
I STILL THINK WE NEED TO PRACTICE ALOT ALOT.
NO TIME!
I'M SO GLAD TT SO MANYY PEPS ARE ACTUALLY READING AND TAGGING MY BLOG.
OH YAYS!

EXCHANGE OF KISSES.Y

TINGDEAR, thanks dear.how ii hope uu cann dance wid us to0s!

SAMUEL, thanks sam! thanks for all those comments to0s!

MEILING, ah ling! hmm, wahhs denn ii tink ii grew to0! haas.thanks gal. deadlyy single?ii'm gonna be soon! again!

HUII` , thanks gal . (: well it'snt tt great narhhs.hees.

CORRINE , thanks gal! :D thanks for supporting us so so much!

;GGRACE , kekex.okaiies norhhs. hees.hint! (: well , thanks for the compliment!

JIAYAN , kekex. may lady luck will stand by us! (:

PASSERBY , thanks. but it'll be great if uu state who uu are! :D

CHESTER , mr stylish.uu finally tagg my blogg. hahas.by our imagination. 8april ish the competition! whees.wish us! fast!

passer-by, kekex. thanks! uu're? hees.

SEARCH FOR UUR REPLYY! :D AND TAGG AGAIN! haas.

PEPS if possible pls acknowledge who uu're! :D

thanks.

`misscrosses.ii love being miies.at least, for now.

OH WELLS. tt's when we practice at ting's hus.
c which one is faster denn loadd it.
:D
COMMENT!
SHOW ME THE MONEY!


TAG REPLIIES!
ZIXIAN. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE. IT SHOULDD BE PER DAY! i WORTH EVEN MORE DEN TT MANN! :D

;ggrace. PIE! ii hint le got use marhs?! :( ii love ya.

yoketing . MUACKS. tml! (":


zixian. okaiies larhhs. go out wid miies larhs. uu ask miies out nor. but please rem to book miies in 1 week advance. ii'm having too much dates . >..<


huii` . uu say it , mean it. heees.LOVE uu GAL LOADDS.



`MISS CROSSES. BACK IN TRACK.

OUR SCH'S CO STUDENTS DID A DAMN GO0D JOB MANNS. THEY GOT GOLD.
GREAT WORK! THEY WORKED DAMN HARDD NARHH. NOWS , THEY FINALLY GOT TIME TO ASK MIIES OUT LE WORHS. (hint to cryst, huii , jun he , ruting , yoketing.)

TAG REPLIIES! Y
thanks ppl! yarhs.ii'm no longer sadd lerrs.
(:
thanks for all tt care and concern :D
love youu pple.

ZI XIAN : LOLS. 1 million per day larhhs. on narhhs! STEADYY.
ANONY : cos he was beside me and denns ii cry andd sae sae sae denn he cryy norhhs. hahs. uu're?

EVERYONE IS BREAKING.
CRYING AND GETTING EMOTIONAL.
WELL, THIS TIME ROUND.
IT WASNT LIKE LAST YEAR.(COS OF STUDYY'S STRESS)
THIS TIME ROUND ARE PROBLEMS ALL ARD US.


WELL.
I CRIED DURING COMP STUDIES.
I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE,
AND GUESS WHADD?
JIAN JUN CRIED TO0.
HE WAS NEXT TO ME.
HAAS.
EMOTIONAL PEOPLE.


I'M MUCH BETTER.
I HOPE I M?
L0LS.


I DUNWANNA MISS UU.
PLEASE GET OUT OF MY MIND.
STOP BEING STUCKED UP THERE.
I CANT REFRAIN.
AVOID.
SCAM.
RUN AWAE.
HIDE.

ii 'm so sorrys to the frens aroundd miies.

for having to tolerate my mood swing.

and.

my tears.ii noe it's annoying.

ii hate it when ii cry.

ii hate my self.

ii hate it when ii try to do things tt are..

stupiidd.

ii hate it.

ii wanna get over hims.

but ii couldnt.

thanks pple for being there for miies.

andd takingg in my nonsense.

plus,

thanks for all that concern and console.

(:

`crosses.bit by bit.ii noe.ii'm ganing the steps to ME.

ii seriouslyy cann feel the ache.
the ache in my hart.
the pain.
somethingg squeezingg it hard.

ii feel like..
ii feel like crying.
my hart's sobbing .

it feel like it've been thrown onto the ground,
beingg stepped by a million feet.
flat.
buried with a thousand layers of mudd and soil.
it's all heavy.
burden-"ed"

PAIN.
BREATHLESS.
heart is twisted.
EMOTIONAL.
slashes.
the feeling is making me puke.
the weight down there is weighing me down.
pulling me down.

ii am no longer the lil ; hyper ; cheerful gal tt everyone knew.
it was in the past.
BRINGMEBACK.
ii am alwaes trying to surpress my feelings.
the feeling ish overtaking me.
behind those smiles ii tried to fake.
ii'm hiding ALL my emotions.

kill me if uu wan.
there;snt any point.
slashes.
hit miies hard.(when uu see miies)
b0ut not on my shagged face.

`crosses.STABS.BLOODYY DRIPS.

ii miss him.
TEAR ME APART.

those wordds did hurt.
it's aching ; right down there.
get a hold of my ribcage andd reach for it.
open it.
find my heart.
it's bleeding.
did hurt alot.
notice the wounds and cuts.
slashed;
pierced with thousand rusted nail.
pin it on a nail bed.
add sodium on it and rub.
till it bleed till the last drop.
squeeze it.
make it dry.
tan it under the sun.
for a golden crisp.
dried up.
eat it.
it taste , bitter , sour.
texture : rough.(full of cuts)

it's aching.
hard in there.
it's crying,
much in there.
swallowing down my sorrows down in there.
it feel bloated.
SORE.
supressing my tears.
replacing it with blood.
let it drip till it dries.
clot up.
hang on.
dead ,
and halfway gone.
search for the other part.

since it had alr hurt so much.
ii dun mind the pain.
just for u.
ii dun mind the words , from people's tongue.

ii fell in the well.
cos ii see the reflection of uurs behind mine.
just to search.


`crosses.BITSandPIECESofME.PICK THEM UP.