I said that i am giving up.
Its different from moving on.
Giving up just means numbing myself from any potential pain.
Go, be with all the girlfriends.
I am sorry.
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Had too much shit happening on me recently.
I just really need someone to be here for me.
It's really painful to bear it myself.
Everyday, every now and then, i am living in the shadows of fear.
I am gettig this phobia when guys come near me.
If only, i was a guy.
I need to get out of this tramau.
