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Alrights, I'm currently using this now.

WITHOUT my pictures , nice music and blahs.

I shall get on with life and blog about the recent me.

I've been a

:Extreme slacko.
:Jobless asshole.
:Pathetic blogger.
:Peniless lady.

Anymore of this list, you bet so.

Sheryl ^^ she's the only one beside crystal whom i've met after my tw trip.
And YEY, tmr meeting quelic prack @ Claire's! Superb excited.

All about Me time
I'm totally looking forward to my bs, Prince C.

I'm starting to miss 4D`08 badly. and esp , a few selective girlfriends! ):

I met Nutnad today and she's really pretty in real life.
:)
I'm going to reply tags starting from tmr.
dont worry, i do read every single tags and comments^

Heart grows minimal,
Let alone the heart beat stop.

That looks electrifies me, not on purpose.
For her, it was otherwise.
Those of hers, managed too.
I couldnt utter a word,
when i was asked ,'What's so gd bout him'
You were merely a stranger,
Whom i claimed to loved.
chummy, no.
I just plunged and immersed into the soul of yours.
you dint feel.
Reluctantly i was forced out.
Slammed dorrs . Crashed windows.
Deploreness surges as i'm no friend of yours.
Your language may be written in lies,
I heard it as nice.
You were part of awe,
Whom blinded out my appearance.

You never know that your bliss was someone's misery .
If you had known, would you still?

I bet you would.

Dry that up ,
all of that.
No more whines ,
no more sobs.


Refraining to think,
Refraining to miss.
It's foul air.
You are stuck like glue, on my mind.
The throe of agony,
is really bad.


Dry those tears,
Empty.


You burnt me.
literally not.
you got it vacant ,
aggrieved.
Damaged,
like how deleterious a volcano can be.
It strains much. and i really mean it.


memories are killer.
It explains how silence murder.
words to be mum in heart,
causing pricks and pierces.
As friends ,i'm glad.
As silence , tears.
As conversations , i had never made known .
Letting it rest as possible.
spot, shut.


Grey casts, the surge for you.

;Martyrdom

vacancy in the hollow hold.
substances abosorbed into vaccuum.
iniation conquered.
left to right,
right to left,
stared into the stagnant cool mist,
black , all black.
All these are nothing ,
empty. without any mass.
hold it with your heart.
and put some into your brain.

-ifeelempty.

went for lewis' gig at dxo with dexter.
People, listen up , MERCY RESTRAINT IS GOOD! :)
it's a band anws. heys,free advertisement leh! haha.


guitarist , i think he's called jeremy. he looks like jay chou.

and this is LEWIS!

Dexter :) he makes great accompany.

WOO QIAO HUI CAME MY HOUSE. haha.

`YU; i want to go a step forward. but there's no need.

RUN AWAY.


Memories are hauling , deep from beneath.
hurled at me.
some stuffs that are gone forever,
be gone with the wind.
i still think of it.
it's already a year before i realised it.
i dint treasure much before,
and your backview were a temptation to grab.
how i wished,
tightly cuddled ,
and never let go.


Tears are beholding.
i wished to let it out.
but aint alone.
i do not wanna lash it out with a consoling heart.
i need someone's warmth, shoulder.
HUGS ARE LOVE.


i went to rebond today and had a haircut.
spent $130.
idk , it looked good when i was in the salon, and now it wave like shit.
worse than before.
like damn.
may the above bless me with better luck.
shall upload pics someday.


something that i always mentioned,
LIVE WITH NO REGRETS.
but i'm such a contradict.
phweefs.


ì-GRAVE ; MOMENTUM OF DEPLORE.

some parts of life, make me feel like crying an ocean out from my heart.
but crying dint seems to be as simple as ever.


mshon said something which quite touched me, some time recent.
& piepie always offers me with the questions and concern i wish to hear.
nevertheless, THANKS GIRLFRIENDS -if i can consider you as one.


I got a pair of grey contact lens which so dint suit me. GOD DAMN IT`
my braces colour is BLUE and RED.
and i seriously have something against this COLOUR.
SERIOUS COLOUR DISORDER! *SCREAMS*

MEET MY EYES.

Vacancy in life. felt so much ridiculed.

Caliginous thoughts.

obscured heart.

stabs of agony.

LIFE's such a ..

WORD.

sardonicism.

TAKE SIDES AS YOU WISH.
just dont imply. (:
it's like I CARE.

stenches of rotting.
heads bursting,
corpses increasing.
voices vanishing,
blood condensing.
love depleting,
odium stacking.
iniation conquered.


went out with amanda today and outings with her never fails to turn out so happily. (:
and i saw so many people.
kenneth,terrance,bibi they all. ; jabez; xiaolynn ; raymond tan;lorinna; that fugly-cant-dance-girl (:

*frankie is adores! :D
ignore that by the way.

to:

i may be myself, you may be yourself.
questions without answers,
happiness was not true.
i dint feel like talking much,
you just cant understand me.
fraud, false.
we 're all making tales.
may it be fairy,
may it be evil.
would i be happier if it's just the four of you.

the moon that is full is never round .

just the same ,

it's not adequate to fill me up.

emptiness , not satisfy, uncontented.
lonely, isolated, i aint feeling happy.

keep those jeers,

act no queer.

once again, shall crosses say ,

BE GONE WITH THE WIND.

affected by nana,i couldnt care much.

crosses;death or glory, who shall decide.

this is how ii'm feeling right now.
it's like perhaps, you guys may think that ii've been such a bitch , such a slut.
whaddever, sometimes, ii think so too.
ii cant change your mentality of me .
but hell yae, i cant even remb stuffs that ii did.
ii've been terrible ii noe.
call me names, and yae, I CARE.

ii'm damn screwed. ii noe.
ii'm alone. yes ii'm.
ii shall retreat . ii will.

tears flowing backwards,

and ii'm sure.

not in a clear state, ii was.

death penalty was sentenced.
to silence me as a killer.



debris sustained right in there.
memory ii tried to held back.
ii care,
but the above was unfair.

Blogging never fails to make me feel much better.
: D


firstly, sorryys to all those people, whom had had to take care of me, whom had been affected by me.
ii'm damn it screwed. and , ii reallyys hate it. damn fcuk.
& , THANKS.


oh wells , ii just need my anitoque to verge out my feelings all rights here. thanks.
if anyone of whoever aint comfortable reading the post of whaddsoever, I CARE, just back off. (:



OUR DANCE ON FRIDAY.
thanks for the compliments. ii guess we did not to0 bad alr (: and it's GROUP EFFORT!
thanks gals! :D
felt veryys glad that almost all the teachers liked our dance (:
ii walked past the staff room and verrys-positive remarks were given. hehs.



ta da! : D

gushes of guilt filled in,

squeezing hard,the bloodstream .

without thinking,

just about that horrified dream.

torments of love,

bits and pieces.

fragments of odium,

stink up to your expectations.

`MISSCROSSES; get me out of here. i beg.

this whole week was kinda like wasted for me.?
ii praticallyy wake up everyday in a zombie state and jump out of my hus in a damn deadly manner and jump all the way to the school of dead. LOLS.

whadd's life all about manns?

tireness and boredom almost overtook the whole of me. A crosses zombie slams in the classroom backdoor. walks in uncouthly and slap her big head on the table. Till if there's some fearsome teacher in there. upright, down again.

that's life? for me? for this hyper and crazy person right here? are uu sure?!!?

getting emotional lately. (:
joy oh joy.

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ICESKATING TODAY;
dint fall much? : D
and the trio fell due to qh 's carelessness . arghs.
the hockey players came one by one to scrape the ice on us.
we were kinda the centre of attraction. it's damn damn malu luhs!
and ii was covered by most snowflakes".
how nice arhs?

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existence of mine,

faded off to the background.

covered by diff tongues,

languages that wrote my life over and over again in different phases.

`MISSCROSSES.FRAUD ATE ALL OF US UP.

affected by thoughts intstilled in my mind.

hope those candies lovable touch shall last.

from both of us.

commitment refrained, by the wall to me.

not even filtered.

the feeling of being loved to be prolonged.

the dream that ii yearn for.

yet gemini, the double sides. cant make way for herself to travel.

CROSSROADS mini.

ARGHHS.
I'M DAMN IT BORED AND FASTRATED.
L0LS.
I WAN MONEY .
REAL HARD CASH.
HAAS.
I NIDDA STUDYY AND II AINT DOING TT.
AND MY SIST KEEP TOKING TO ME.
I'M DAMN IT DE IRRITATED.
L0LS.
SHE SOLD ME A TOPSHOP SKIRT WHICH I HAD PAID HER.
AND I JUST SAW HER KEEPING INTO HER STUPID CUPBOARD.
DAMN IT MOTHER FUCK.
L0L.


ANWS,
A BAR OF CHOCOLATE CONTAINS 147 INSECTS FRAGMENTS AND IT'S LEGAL!
LIKE WHADDE..
BUT WHO CARES.
I'M JUST STILL NOT GONNA GIV UP ON EATING MY CHOCOLATE BARS.
I L0VE CHOC.
BUT IT MAKES ME FAT.
I'M FILLED WITH CHOC.
LOADS N LOADS OF IT.
TRIPLE CHOC.


IMAGINE I DIED SOMEDAY,
THE DOCTOR BISECT ME FOR SOME FCUKING REASONS..
N ALL THOSE HARDEN CHOCOLATE JUST FLOW OUT AS SEMI SOLID.
L0LS.

EVERYONE IS BREAKING.
CRYING AND GETTING EMOTIONAL.
WELL, THIS TIME ROUND.
IT WASNT LIKE LAST YEAR.(COS OF STUDYY'S STRESS)
THIS TIME ROUND ARE PROBLEMS ALL ARD US.


WELL.
I CRIED DURING COMP STUDIES.
I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE,
AND GUESS WHADD?
JIAN JUN CRIED TO0.
HE WAS NEXT TO ME.
HAAS.
EMOTIONAL PEOPLE.


I'M MUCH BETTER.
I HOPE I M?
L0LS.


I DUNWANNA MISS UU.
PLEASE GET OUT OF MY MIND.
STOP BEING STUCKED UP THERE.
I CANT REFRAIN.
AVOID.
SCAM.
RUN AWAE.
HIDE.

ii 'm so sorrys to the frens aroundd miies.

for having to tolerate my mood swing.

and.

my tears.ii noe it's annoying.

ii hate it when ii cry.

ii hate my self.

ii hate it when ii try to do things tt are..

stupiidd.

ii hate it.

ii wanna get over hims.

but ii couldnt.

thanks pple for being there for miies.

andd takingg in my nonsense.

plus,

thanks for all that concern and console.

(:

`crosses.bit by bit.ii noe.ii'm ganing the steps to ME.

ii miss him.
TEAR ME APART.

those wordds did hurt.
it's aching ; right down there.
get a hold of my ribcage andd reach for it.
open it.
find my heart.
it's bleeding.
did hurt alot.
notice the wounds and cuts.
slashed;
pierced with thousand rusted nail.
pin it on a nail bed.
add sodium on it and rub.
till it bleed till the last drop.
squeeze it.
make it dry.
tan it under the sun.
for a golden crisp.
dried up.
eat it.
it taste , bitter , sour.
texture : rough.(full of cuts)

it's aching.
hard in there.
it's crying,
much in there.
swallowing down my sorrows down in there.
it feel bloated.
SORE.
supressing my tears.
replacing it with blood.
let it drip till it dries.
clot up.
hang on.
dead ,
and halfway gone.
search for the other part.

since it had alr hurt so much.
ii dun mind the pain.
just for u.
ii dun mind the words , from people's tongue.

ii fell in the well.
cos ii see the reflection of uurs behind mine.
just to search.


`crosses.BITSandPIECESofME.PICK THEM UP.